Short Post In Request of Patience/Forgiveness

Hi. I know I haven't blogged in awhile. So I want to try to explain that, and maybe why it might be a little while longer before I start blogging fullspeed again, which I fully intend to, by the way.

Lately I've been devoting a lot of mental energy to a few things that aren't writing. I'm graduating in May with a B.S. in physics after 5 years of working towards it. That's pretty exciting. It also means that this coming fall with be the first fall in 5 years that I'm going to be doing something besides working towards a degree in physics. I have to decide what that's going to be, and I also have to work out all the details. That's taken up a lot of the time and energy and been the subject of many prayers and conversations.

And it might have been something I wrote about except I don't know exactly what to say about it yet because it has been very disorienting and at times really stressful and sometimes I deal with that by avoiding reality for awhile either in video games or the pointless surfing of the internet, and some other things less innocuous. Writing for me is no escape, but a confrontation with reality. It forces me to face reality in an honest and careful way, because if I do any less then the writing comes out like crap.

Anyway I have been unable, or perhaps too lazy, to wrangle my thoughts into a form that makes sense here up to this point. I don't want to settle for that for much longer. As someone once said, the first key to writing is to write. So this is a step in the right direction. But there are still a few major life changes in the making and a few decisions to be made before I will be able to devote the energy I want to (and indeed, used to) devote to this blog. So it might be a little while longer before I'm going full steam.

So please, if you've found reading this stuff worthwhile, don't give up on me. Check back here every so often, or just leave me on your list of RSS feeds or your friends page or whatever. I will do my best to make it worth your while very soon. And while I'm making requests, if you pray, please pray that God makes his call very clear to me and that I listen enough to hear it. I will appreciate it very much.